“I think I’ve figured out what is wrong with me. I don’t feel like a mom anymore”!
Those are the words I texted to my good friend, knowing full well she would respond with words of encouragement. She understands because she is in a similar season of life. The main difference between us is that her baby chick has one foot in and one foot out of the nest. I was gently reminded that I AM still a mom even though I didn’t feel like it on that mopey afternoon. (It wasn’t even a rainy day or a Monday)!
My friend was right. I am who I am regardless of my feelings. I am a mom and have been for almost 26 years. The good news is that my husband and I raised two confident, independent young adults. The bad news is that we raised two confident, independent young adults. They are not needy at all, yet, there I was pouting because I felt unneeded.
It reminded me of something our pastor often shares with us in his sermons: our salvation is not based on our feelings but on the sacrifice made by Jesus Christ. There are plenty of times I don’t feel like who I truly am . . . a child of God and a daughter of the King. Feelings are fickle and not always trustworthy. It is during these low times that I need to go back and look at what is true!
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.
Philippians 4:8 (NIV)
Now, please pardon me. I’m going to go listen to my Carpenter’s CD while I look at baby albums!